Like A Virgin in the Lustgarden
March 14, 2006
Berlin
I told you NO through the cigarette smoke
Wet sip, wet lips, wet slip
I said I had a boyfriend I said.
But I was at the bar alone because I like to drink alone
I can’t help it if I’m beautiful
I’m in love I said I told you for 18 years
I’m writing my fiancé a letter right now
Expecting you to linger and yet you linger
To discover what a man could cling to for 18 years.
You are unaware how important it all is
You are unimpressed with my fidelity
“18 years and still a virgin?"
You linger in your questions
I am uncomfortable. I know this is making you uncomfortable now
But I am amazed that you will not stop
I gave you my number but I told you not to call
And now I must endure you, not again,
Pulled into your love mysterious, love mystery love, love poetry,
with a long love soliloquy. I hate that.
What will my friends think if they see? I say please
Do not kiss me and you. You do. Anyway.
I tell you love is just another word for
Lust to the inexperienced
And still you believe (what you will)
And draw silly damn hearts in the snow. Smiles throughout your words
Labial hearts in the cigarette smoke. Showoff.
You fool.
I am just tired
And I just want to drink alone, here at the LUSTGARDEN
And be with my own ashtray
18 years.
And you think it’s nothing. You push
It all aside with a swipe on the table
So you can lean closer so you can
And I could see you better
(love at first sight)
You fool.
Why can’t you just leave me alone I write you a note I plead with the pen…
You answer you know the answer...
/TW